from Monticello High School Mustang to Brigham Young University Cougar
"Do all the good you can, by all the means you can, in all the ways you can, in all the places you can, to all the people you can, as long as you ever can." ~John Wesley~

Monday, March 28, 2011

7 months down... 1 to go

I really can't believe that I've been at BYU for over 7 months. Even now when I'm walking on campus and look at the mountains and all the people around me I feel like I don't belong like I'm too young. Where did high school go?!?! Then there are other days where it feels like home. Most of the time though I just feel lucky. Lucky to have gotten an opportunity to come to BYU, lucky to have 4 amazing roommates I get along with, lucky to have support from back home, lucky to have been placed in such an amazing freshman ward with a great bishop and great ward members, lucky to have such wonderful friends, lucky to never have to worry about drunk roommates or unwanted boys in my bedroom, just lucky to be me. Yesterday we had our last fast and testimony meeting... it was a mad dash to the front. As many times as I wanted to get up and wanted to get up to say something I kept myself in my seat. It was a good thing though because instead of being worried about what I was going to say I got to just listen. I know I'm going to entirely butcher it, but Keenan was talking about hiking and he made the greatest analogy he said, "You can't stay at the summit forever, but when you come down from the summit you should be different because of what you saw there." I thought that was the coolest thing I've ever heard and totally applies to my life right now. I have had the most amazing experience being at BYU the past 7 months and I have learned more than I ever imagined, but now I'm preparing to go home. I should be going home a different person because I have spent 7 months on my own personal summit, and because of the things that I have seen and experienced here I should be going home changed because of my time spent at the summit. When I look back at the girl who came to BYU in August I am surprised to see how much change has happened to change that girl into who I am today. The girl who moved into the dorms August 25th was scared, was unsure of who she was who she wanted to be or what she wanted to do. She was scared out of her mind to be thousands of miles away from home, family, friends, and the familiar. She was a little bit shy and even more awkward. That girl has pretty much disappeared. I am no longer afraid of the unknown, I've learned a really cool theory: for God to direct your path you have to be moving you feet, so sometimes that means you have to take a step or two into the dark unknown. I have come to know a lot about myself. I know who I am, who I want to become, and what I want to do. I'm less shy and less awkward. Am I perfect? Nope not at all. But I know where I'm heading. Life has meaning and direction, more so than it did in high school. I know that a great deal of the changes that I've gone through could only have happened at BYU. There were specific people that I needed on this journey to teach me specific lessons that I couldn't learn from anyone else. I really wish there was a way to thank every single person who had helped me during my time at BYU, but unfortunately I don't know them all by name. There have been so many times that my roommates, my friends, my ward members have said the specific thing I needed to hear, but there have also been random strangers on campus who have helped me more than they know. I feel so blessed to have spent the past 7 months here and as wonderful as it is to be going home I'm gonna miss this campus and this enviornment for the next 4 months of summer vacation. Most of all I'm gonna miss my freshman ward and I am so excited to be living with so many of the girls in Glenwood next fall and I am so incredibly proud of the boys for leaving on missions, they are stellar individuals and will make the world's most amazing missionaries.

Monday, March 14, 2011

Blog Neglect

Well I got entirely overwhelmed and distracted the past 3 months and have basically ignored my blog.... oops. So I guess I'll just give you a quick update and try to do better for the rest of the semester although I make no promises.

Roomies: I still absolutely adore those 4 girls. We get along so well and we have a ton of fun whenever we're together. Each day they're feeling more and more like my sisters and less and less like my friends. I really have no clue what in the world I'm going to do without them this summer. Roadtrip to San Antonio, Chicago, Sparks, or San Francisco? maybe we'll see!

Boys: they exist? kidding kidding. To quote myself, "I will fight over boys because they are beautiful and wonderful and I like them, but I will not fight over dishes." Honestly there aren't any boys I'm fighting over right now though. I'm content to have lots of guy friends, but pre-mission boys are no offense but a waste of time. A serious relationship with a month left in the semester with boys who are leaving to foreign lands just doesn't really make sense. I'm totally up for dates though! The Gariet thing... well we broke up like we planned at the end of last semester, we're working on a friendship and I'm happily coexisting in the same ward as him to steal my sister's word. That makes it sound so bad... :P It really isn't. He's a good guy and is still super nice. His new girlfriend Rachel is pretty awesome too.

Thursday Night Dinners: This semester I started a new tradition of having Felt 32 and other random guests over for dinner on Thursday night. I really really enjoy making dinner for a lot of people, so this is PERFECT. I'm trying out some new recipies on them and perfecting some old ones. It's actually really cool I've learned that I can live on $40 a week and still feed like an extra 8 people on one day. So FUN!

I'd love to say all my classes are easy and great.... but that would be a lie! I am doing a lot better than I was doing last semester. There are still some grades that I need to bump up, but hey I'm hoovering around the B mark in all of my classes which is super great! We'll see if I can pull back up my GPA! :) I am actually really loving a few of my classes. My sister didn't lie when she said Brother Bott is the best Mission Prep teacher ever, and I find my Geography class very interesting.... which rarely happens. As I was looking at what I have left I realized that I have the best classes left before I enter my major. I get to take Human Development and Children's Literature next semester. Which is SOOOO great! I really am loving the school part of college, which I know is weird to hear!

I had three very very special visitors this semester. The first was at the very beginning of the semester... MY DADDY! He came out to take care of Tyler after his surgery for a few weeks! I loved having him here. It was so great getting to see them all the time. I love my brother but mostly I just love my Daddy. Speaking of Ty, he went back to the mission field in February and is doing super great! We got to go out to dinner with my cute aunt and uncle and Ty right before he went back. It was great seeing him but yep time for him to go back on a mission. My other two visitors were my cute cousin Brittany and my cute Grandma Dudley! They came out for a wedding that Brittany was in. Mallory and I went up to Draper on Saturday to see them and spend the night. It was so fun getting to just chat with my Draper cousins and then go to Music and the Spoken Word and bum around Salt Lake on Sunday. On Monday I even took them all to the Brigham Young University Museum of Art Carl Bloch Exhibit. My Grandma absolutely loved it and I've heard that's all she's talked about since. I'm also looking forward to seeing my cousin Ai-ai (Alyson Holloway) when she comes to visit.... which by the way she's officially a COUGAR! yay for a really great party next fall with her around!!!!

HOLY MISSION CALLS! Seriously, there are like 4 a week, and it's CRAZY! I will probably do another blog post just about mission calls/missionaries/and pictures!

Things are pretty great here in Provo.... I'll try better to blog about events that my poor blog has missed out on this semester, and to keep this whole blog thing going.... but NO promises